More of you and less of me .

A whole head and heart full, and Can not sleep.

Today was beautiful outside , really , really beautiful

Today , this one day .. changed a lot . I lost my job . woo. what a feeling that is ..it kindof cut me deeply.( they just couldnt provide hrs )and instantly I felt a little ...okay not a little ..a lot.. like... " what is happening , God , how are you just letting this happen to me . I don't understand , I put you first in everything , why me sorta thing " ...

My best friend moved and is currently out of the country and cant talk on the phone even ....

I failed my state board test by a point. and now ...

I just lost my Job ...

God Im still here .. Help! can you tell me you love me .. because I feel very alone. Yup. thats just what I felt and was very upset/ sad..

But You know.. there that peace comes overwhelming my whole being , that peace that life can go any direction and I will always be okay because Jesus is My all.

To me this all seems so sucky and all I can do is weap sometimes , and the picture right now to me may not look good..

but in Gods eyes Its something amazing , something that is molding me a little more into where he wants me ..

My arms are open in full surrender..

My life is not my own .. I have hit a little bump in road .. nothing God cant handle , he gave me my job so easily , right out of school .. a great job that found me ... why do you even give it a thought that he won't provide another one ! silly me .

Im not living my life with me in control anyway , so why think about it any longer .

But Oh How times are a Changing ..

I' m now going to keep listening to my french collection of music and try and drift off to sleep :)

Be blessed and be a blessing.