Julie and Julia

Paul Child " what is it you REALLY like to do ? "

Julia Child " eat , look at me I am growing right in front of you "

so .... I bought a book that holds all of your recpies in it . The front is covered with bright green asparagus totally appropriate and adorable , cought my eye and I was sold .

These days life is quite different then I imagined it would be . Not In a bad way but I never imagined it quite like this quite at this time quite In Tampa ; ) I am currently jobless . Curentlly - keep praying - never the less Life still always stays charming because Of something I have started to do with two friends is cook ! Im talking real herbs real juices and real meats .. and ever so real sweets .. hm. and Im loving it ..

Every Sunday night we put on our aprons and cook up a storm and have a blast , a few nights ago we were pre-paring for a Valentines amazingness 3 course meal for our Famlies and for a little fun and Inspiration we watched Julie and Julia so cute , the more I see it the more I like it and maybe it also has something to do with getting my hands into cooking and being where I can actually relate which is super fun . " ohhhh , that is how its done "

So as much as I dont mean to be doing something so very close to the movie , you will have to bare with me for it is what has been slightly filling my days ( COOKING ) ha . and the more I cook the more my mind thinks of cooking .. ahh . we may have a slight problem here

ok so , my number one at the moment ...I am sure it will change offten : )

Im in love with brussels sprouts , something that is nutritionally excellent for you and you pretty much can add any kind of spices or sause to them and they taste so yummy .

FOR INSTANCE .

I did a leamon butter sause wirth chopped pecans and a dash of salt and pepper . ( if desired ) haha going pro.

well I hope you enjoyed my small confessions of cooking .

I will try to keep cooking post limited . hahah .

<3>

Happy Late Valentines day blogworld .

atmybest.

S H I N E a little L I G H T on me please..

sigh ' . So I am sitting in the rays of sunshine.

and It feels ever ever so pleasent !

God is heavenly . really, honestly and truly .

He is my place of rest , the arms where I find comfort and understanding .

So many things I honestly just dont understand I ask why Hundereds 100 of times . I get confused .

but I know , that I understand a bit of his love, no , not all of it in fact , I think I discover more and more of it daily and new levels of it constantly , because it is too { great } to behold ALL of it . .

Sometimes I am misunderstood . My words come out all mangled together and not

in right order or form or context ..

Sometimes I offend , when I really truly dont mean too , or sometimes maybe I am too sweet ha

yeah I said it ; )

God understands he understands my heart , hurt and joy.

This is so basic , but basic is sooooo good. you cant do anything without the basics in everything .

and the basic is that Jesus loves me more than I can hold together . ahh and its so , so , so , unreal.

I am truly blessed

forgive me Lord. at times it seems I do forget this !

I strive . to make stenuous efforts toward any goal, to strive for success!

p.s I' am running the gasparilla for the first time this year . yeah !

new me . new goals. new places.

Come let me sing into your ear

Come let me sing into your ear.

Every song you'v loved , every memory you cherish , every moment that has caused you holy tears,

has been given to you from the one who has been pursuing you from your very first breathe.

In order to win your heart , God's version of flowers and chocolates and candle light dinners comes in the form

of falling stars , the moonlight hanging over the lake , cricket symphonys , warm winds , swaying trees , lush grass ,

and gardens ! His love is surrounding us , we are living in it , If we would have the eyes to see it . . It hurts my insides when we dont stop and take it in , Ahh and I myself too , sometimes forget .. when Im driving I almost always take a photo of the sky when it catches my eye . but often I know God is whispering .. " look , look my sweet darling at how bright I made the sun today , or dont the stars look extra bright tonight .. I did that for YOU.

My life is . something valued and treasured ,

and you know what , I can be all alone in the world ... all alone .

without Fmaily or friends . but If I have God I know it will be well.

and I am so learning that .

I am being peeled back layer by layer , like an onion and Gods showing me what I am made of

and what I am so capable of .. and Oh , is it so much more that I imagined ..

the times that are hard in life . are God saying I care for you , I care to make you stronger and overcome things .

Hes saying I care , and I love you .

and just by that I am content . I am alive and well .

sleep well sweet people , that are so loved ..

wish apon a star.

wish apon a star.

hm . Where do I start.

well , I guess this is a good place . I am 20 years old today and I do feel different - I feel excited

and with a fresh joy that nothing can really bring me down right now. My thoughts have been consumed with how blessed I am

with how much I have to offer living boldly and freely .. Its amazing !

But a Few Nights ago. I had a Birthday celebration . I wasnt going to do it .. I thought "naa I'll just keep it on the low , "

but then I thought you know what .. I dont want to look back and think" I should have done something ".. I think I would regret it if so.

So my darling friend Kelley Jackson and I put our minds together and got to work.. and lets just say , we made a wonderful almost perfect night take place .. and Autumn and Brittnay played a huge part as well.. but what It boils down too Is How greatful I was for everyone coming and really enjoying themselfs..I love seeing people interact that havent in quite some time..I was very happy that I went through with it .. so thankful.. It showed me how to do the things I desire... to go for it .. put yourself out there even on shaky grounds..

I mean I can be shy so for me to head up a party of about 45 is on the challanging side.. but Boy Im glad I did !

Coco. apple cider. friends. music. candles. food. sparkles. snazzy clothes . photos and a beautiful essence in the air !

c h e e r s . . . He has opened my heart to love under all conditions.

I shall write more often .

Goodbye F l o r i d a ..

Hello G e o r g i a ...

for the next 10 days .

<3

More of you and less of me .

A whole head and heart full, and Can not sleep.

Today was beautiful outside , really , really beautiful

Today , this one day .. changed a lot . I lost my job . woo. what a feeling that is ..it kindof cut me deeply.( they just couldnt provide hrs )and instantly I felt a little ...okay not a little ..a lot.. like... " what is happening , God , how are you just letting this happen to me . I don't understand , I put you first in everything , why me sorta thing " ...

My best friend moved and is currently out of the country and cant talk on the phone even ....

I failed my state board test by a point. and now ...

I just lost my Job ...

God Im still here .. Help! can you tell me you love me .. because I feel very alone. Yup. thats just what I felt and was very upset/ sad..

But You know.. there that peace comes overwhelming my whole being , that peace that life can go any direction and I will always be okay because Jesus is My all.

To me this all seems so sucky and all I can do is weap sometimes , and the picture right now to me may not look good..

but in Gods eyes Its something amazing , something that is molding me a little more into where he wants me ..

My arms are open in full surrender..

My life is not my own .. I have hit a little bump in road .. nothing God cant handle , he gave me my job so easily , right out of school .. a great job that found me ... why do you even give it a thought that he won't provide another one ! silly me .

Im not living my life with me in control anyway , so why think about it any longer .

But Oh How times are a Changing ..

I' m now going to keep listening to my french collection of music and try and drift off to sleep :)

Be blessed and be a blessing.

Strange.. just visiting her .

spent the last 4 nights in Ft.lauderdale/ Miami area. - empire of sunshine everyday

We talked

We danced

We ate really fancy cooked meals

We played a little travel scrabble

We drank coffee , and said how nice a glass of wine would be !

We snorkled

We saw the reddest harvest moon ever, just sitting on the edge of the ocean

We had amazing waiters ( Bill boy, Baggins, Nabraskin pirate )

We shopped

We colored hair

We cut hair

We had unique deserts

We had muffins and smoothies

We drove

We even shared a twin bed , due to limited space

We took photos

We dolled up

We had challenging parking jobs.

We had a blast like we always do

We were Camille and Logan .

And ....WE said goodbye ( once again )

I will see her at Pete's wedding in one month !

" I will Rejoice and be glad in him ! "